Slow Dancing In A Burning Room ♥

Don't You Forget About Me.

2010-01-24T00:17:00.001-08:00

Ok, well here's the thing.

I hate this layout now.

So, I'm going to change it.

And since I've had a 100 posts on this blog.

I think I need to start fresh.

So, goodbye old memories. (:

Let's try something new. (:

Post 100, Whoa.

2009-12-14T17:31:00.001-08:00

OWH. MY. GOD.

This is my 100th post. Isn't that great! :D
So, to celebrate. Nicole Lee is coming over! :D
We're gonna take loads of pics, so yeah.
We will be:

CAMWHORING!

So bye, bye folks, till later today!

Whoa, What a Month. Boy, I Miss You.

2009-12-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

Hello people who actually are reading this post.
If you are wondering why I am suddenly blogging,
It's cause.....DUN DUN DUN DUN!
It's the HOLIDAYS! :D

And yes, I am as bored as bored can be. (:
Sigh... late realizations and disclosed desires:
Here we go. Whooopee.

1) I will always be that girl who puts on her make-up and prays for a miracle.
2) I show up at all parties, dateless.
3) I'll have a blast dancing with all my friends. BUT
4) They'll play a slow song and BADABINGBADABOOM!
5) I'll be ~~lonely.~~
6) I can't live without chocolate milk.
7) Justin Bieber is actually pretty good.
8) Jamie Cullum is awesome.
9) No matter where you go, Michael Buble will make everything better.
10) There will always be that one person that makes you feel like flying.

....even though he doesn't know it. (;

& Boy, I really ~~miss~~ you. (;

Vampire For Dummies.

2009-10-26T03:35:00.000-07:00

This is for my English. So don't ask. ==.

Cool Myspace Generators

Back At Your Door,

2009-10-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

Da-yum.

It's been ages since I blogged man,

Ok, from many personal experiences, & experiences of others,

I have come to find that love, does not exist.

Think about it.

1) Crushes, ~~fade.~~

2) Relationships, ~~die away.~~

3) Marriages, ~~never stay.~~

Based on the above facts,

I have come to the conclusion,

That love, is just something we make up,

To feel better.

& We pity ourselves because we can't find it.

It's ok! For those of you who are very much single,

YOU ARE THE SMART ONES!

Trust me, even if you do ~~LOVE~~ someone,

Prepare to be heartbroken lah.

I mean seriously, no one is ever really happy when they're in love,

It's temporary.

Be single girls,

Date a guy 5 times, have some fun,

And then MOVE ON!

Don't stay too long,

It NEVER works out, trust me.

So be smart & stay single,

You'll be happier. (;

Ciao.

Party In The MSA (;

2009-10-10T21:06:00.000-07:00

CHLOEEEEE!

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday dear Chloe,

Happy Birthday to you! :D

Here you go Evelyini. :P

My new dress from Blook.

More pics later.

Ciao. (:

Results May Vary. Pfft.

2009-09-28T02:07:00.000-07:00

Sigh....

I studied really hard man.

I don't think 4a was good enough.

Pfft. I really wanted a five.

My dad will be ~~PISSED FOR SURE!!!~~

Why lah. I tried so hard!

Hmph. *points at picture*

Ciao lah. Damn sad now.

Crazy Love.

2009-09-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

Damn man.

We have a Science test tomorrow!

I've been studying like craaazy!

Psht. I ~~HATE~~ tests.

But I've also been doing my art project as well.

Here you go! Damn it looks cacat. :p

Haha, anyway....

I'm kinda bummed that I ~~CANNOT~~ go for the Beyonce concert.

Any tips on how to get my dad to let me go? :\

PLEASE! PLEASE PLEASE!

Me not going for her concert is like her not going to her own concert. ==.

Like seriously man.

I need to go! I HAVE to go!!!

Pfft. Parents hold you back don't they? :(

Damn, Worked Up! - I'm No Superman ; Lazlo Bane

2009-09-21T06:59:00.000-07:00

It's damn sad woi.

We all post this stuff up just to find out that no one even reads them.

FotherMucker.

Whoa! There are Raya Fireworks outside.

My window view can be very beautiful. (:

Now, let's just relax.

Sigh....

Been ~~REALLY~~ busy lately.

Haven't had time for anything.

I guess the new Year 9 is getting to us.

To everyone.

The worst part is pretneding that I honestly, and truly, posetively don't care anymore.

When everyone knows I still do.

Damn, Vila. Get a life.

Anyway, I'm gonna watch the momentary magic,

That is outside my bedroom window,

& Call it a good day.

Good Night. (;

It's A New Life ; Start Of Something New - HSM 1

2009-09-12T21:38:00.001-07:00

I realised I haven't blogged in like ages man.
So here are the updates.

Form Tutur - Mr. Sathi.
He has awesome multi-coloured fingernails. Wicked cool. (;

English - Ms. Ginn.
I think we all know how perky she can be. I like the way she smells like coffee. (:

Math - Mr. Aru.
Haha, he is very funny. You can ask him about anything, and he will give you the answer. xD

Science - Ms. Kausilya.
Erm, honestly, no comment. :

Geography & History - Mr. Robinson.
He is awesome lah, it was like a quater of the lesson and he remembered my name. & He is really funny. HAHAHA. :))

Erm who else...

Art - Mr. Sathi.
He takes his Art seriously.

Chinese - Some new teacher whose name I forgot.
I am apparently her best student. =="

Malay - DUNDUNDUNDUNNNNNN
No comment. :

PE - We have swimming, which totally sucks right now.
I hate swimming like hell. Ergh. & We have it twice a week.

Plus they have this weird two-week time-table which no one understands. O.o
I don't see the point of it really.
But I guess it's for some good purpose.

There are loads of new kids,
I'll take pictures & upload soon.

But till then,
This post is over. :))

Ciao.

MUST WATCH!

2009-08-28T02:10:00.000-07:00

This movie is awesome, hope you guys check it out.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-wMe9vxkWI

I am soo jobless. Aargh.

School's Starting Man! ; I Can't Wait - Akon ft. T-Pain

2009-08-28T01:19:00.001-07:00

OMG!

Saturday, Sunday, Monday!

SCHOOL!

OMG OMG OMG!

I don't know what I'm gonna go man.

I suddenly feel so nervous.

Year 9 man, no kidding.

I need to pay more attention & not let anything else get in the way.

It's time I get my priorities straight.

Summer Love turns me on....

Anyways, back to the topic.

School. No more boys. Period.

They suck anyway.

Just finished wrapping my brothers books. Wohooo.

Now I have to do mine. Sigh...

Haha, Mark has this crazy idea.

He's gonna work at McDonlad's and drive a motorbike.

Whoa! xP Good Luck with that.

Okeiss, gotta go now,

Byee :)

Dreams Should Come True ; A Moment Like This - Kell Clarkson

2009-08-25T23:51:00.000-07:00

Today I got bored, and as usual,
I started youtubing people.
The I stumbled on this guy,

Danyl Johnson.

& I was like,

OMFG.

He is AWESOME!

Go check him out.
Before they take the video away.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mzj9z8QDTfU&feature=PlayList&p=iPSWjN5P6Vs

Psh, take that Susan Boyle.

How Much Longer? ; Many The Miles - Sara Bareilles

2009-08-24T19:12:00.000-07:00

How far do I have to go to get to you?

Many the miles,

Send me the miles, & I'll be happy too...

Is it too much to ask?

I just don't want to be ~~lonely~~ anymore.

I don't want to deal with all this crap.

This is too much for a thirteen year old to deal with.

Am I right?

Yesh, I am.

Sigh....

School starts in a week.

I am barely ready to face all the drama that's gonna happen then.

Tsk, tsk, tsk.

Can't wait to see all the NEW people.

God I'm so effing pathetic.

I'm secretly proud of myslef for taking it so well.

I'm not exactly jumping for joy,

But I'm keeping busy.

Being me is actually not so bad,

But I bet you wouldn't last a day...

Moving On ; If You Want Me To - Ginny Owens

2009-08-13T22:01:00.000-07:00

I am the type of girl who falls,

And falls pretty darn hard.

So it hurts twice as more when I find out,

That it's not gonna work out.

And I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible.

And I hold on to things long after I should.

I don't let go of things as easily as I should.

If there is one thing I am good at it's rejection.

Because I've been through it over and over.

I should have experience right ;)

Yes, I should have plenty!

So, this time, when i found out that it wasn't gonna work out,

I took it really well.

Actually, I'm surprised.

I lost it all but I am still standing.

Because I know I ain't good enough,

But God will be here & so will all my friends.

In that I pray that you will come find me

And when you do the world will know that we were meant to be.

And you will dedicate songs & go that extra mile for me.

I know you will. Because love never ever runs out of style.

And after all the crushes have faded.

And after all my wishful thinking was wrong.

I'm jaded, I hate it.

I'm so tired of being alone,

So hurry up and get here please!

Ciao,

Vila

Words I Like To Say Out Loud ; Words, Words, Words - Jason Mraz

2009-08-09T01:37:00.000-07:00

In life, many people have different ways of expressing themsleves.
For me, it's my words. And my music. Things I can't live without.
Amoung these things, there are some words I just love saying.

1) Tami Flu - it's a medicine that prevents swine flu
2) Google Chrome - I like the Chrome
3) Mozzila Firefox - sounds like cheese
4) Lines, Vines & Trying Times - Jonas Brother's album
5) Michael Buble - love him man...

Any words you love? Comment here please!

It's Over, I'm Done ; Never Say Never - The Fray

2009-08-03T22:25:00.000-07:00

It's so funny,
Suddenly I have ~~nothing~~ to say.
You have to realize that no amount of sad status's will be able to explain how I feel right now.
Waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought, or waiting for snow here in Malaysia.
Useless, disappointing, heart breaking and

~~IMPOSSIBLE~~

And what hurts the most
Was being so close,
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away.

I wish we never met,
I wish you never looked at me that way,
I wish you never held me close,
I wish I didn't like you so much,
So that now it won't hurt as much.

I think I am falling for the pretty picture you are painting,
Not the real you,
The real you is the guy I've been seeing this summer.
You are a

~~HEART-BREAKER~~

Now you have my heart and you wont give it back.
All I need now is to press the rewind button and not give it to you.
How can I give you all of me when all I get back is half of you?
What can I do to prove what I'm feeling is true?

It's so hard when we come so close,
Then you leave again.
It's as if you just need someone to love you.
Am I just for show?
Tell me because I need to know.

Where is the good in goodbye?
I'm so broken, My love is frozen.
No matter how many signs there are,
I know you won't be there for me when I need you.

The worst part about falling for you,
Is that I know you won't be there when I wake up,
You are done using me,
It's like I said I am not your substitute lover.

I guess I'll never know what goes on in that twisted heart of yours.
So this is our final goodbye.
I am not going to fall for your charm again.
No, Not this time.

~~I'M DONE~~

We Had Some Good Times ; Built To Last - Melee

2009-07-26T22:05:00.000-07:00

Just thinking about school reminds me of all the good times.

They are definately Built To Last.

Miss you guys :/ and Mr. Lee.

Hope we will have many more to come :)

-vila :D

I'll Never Forget You ; You And Me - Lifehouse

2009-07-25T03:45:00.000-07:00

It's awsome being in love.
It starts as friends, continues with a kiss, but ~~ENDS~~ in tears.
It was great while it lasted.
I thank you SO much for those brief moments that made my life ~~COMPLETE.~~
BTW, I still love you.
I will never forget you,
And if you go on to meet ~~SOMEONE NEW,~~
I'll understand.
I know I'm not everything you could ask for,
I may not seem like very much,
But my wasted heart will love you forever.
I may not have the softest touch but I'm yours, if you ever ~~NEED~~ me.
You never said goodbye,
You never talked to me the ~~LAST DAY~~
The last day of our togetherness.
But I will remember everytime you ~~HELD ME CLOSE~~
Every look that moved me to my soul,
And everything I felt when I was with you.
I know in my heart of hearts that I have never felt this way about anyone before,
I would give the world to just know that you ~~FEEL THE SAME~~
Because I know I can't go one day without even thinking about you,
And when I look at you, it's as though the rest of the world isn't there.
It's just ~~YOU AND ME~~
You make me feel like I can reach the stars.
Because I don't feel safe in your arms, I feel complete and I'm afraid of letting go.
I don't feel cool around you, I feel my entire body burning up.
If I could go back to the time where I first met you and relive every memory,
Good or Bad, Believe me, I would.
Because the more it hurts, the more ~~REAL~~ it was.
I suddenly realize how lucky I was to have met you.
I thank you for giving me the time a day,
Just to talk to you, look at you and hold you was enough.
And I will live with regret for not enjoying it more,
Holding on a little tighter, Saying a little more, Looking a little longer.
To me, you are perfect. Despite all your flaws, I saw pefection.
I still do. I know there is more to you than what everyone else says.
Honestly, what hurts the most,
Was being SO close, and having SO much to say. And watching you walk away.
It kills me to know that you and me can never be.
But I'll still love you, I know I will because I am not that smart.
I hope you feel the same way too....

Last Few Days Of School ; Making Memories Of Us - Keith Urban

2009-07-24T06:38:00.000-07:00

Sigh.....

OMG! A year in Tenby is ~~OVER.~~

Thank you guys soo much. ILY guys alot.

Here are some pics, so that 10 years along the road,

We will say we had fun being exactly who we are.

Plain old teens ;)

Dateless ; One Is The Loneliest Number - Harry Nilsson

2009-07-22T01:08:00.000-07:00

Well you know what they say...

One is the loneliest number,

That you'll ever do,

Two can be as bad as one,

It's the loneliest number,

Since Number One.

That is SO unbelievably true.

Let's break it down shall we?

No date, didn't even bother talking to me today. Not even sure he was even there!

But it's ok, it's alright.

You know why?

Because, I am Vila. The kind of person who does everything for everyone but doesn't get anything back. Well I guess I'm OK with it. I like being there for people, but It would be nice to get some love back :S

Anyways, I waited for like ages for you to bring up the topic of ~~'The Dance'.~~

If it took you this long, I have no idea how long it will take for you to ask me.

Sigh....well now it's too late. I hope you are happy now! :(

He is a JERK Nad. Don't even bother ;D

School was okay lah. Very depressing actually. Got our reports. I did good :)

Nothing much happened actually. We watched Confessions of a Shopoholic today.

That was fun I guess.

Well that's it for now.

Ciao.

School Dance ; A Night To Remember - HSM 3

2009-07-21T06:08:00.000-07:00

Hello :)

Sorry I haven't been blogging for ages. Been really lazy....

Anyway, the dance is coming up and I am still ~~date-less.~~

But I am still strong XD

I am one of Beyonce's Single Ladies :(

I recently heard that Vin's good friend Kimberly is coming to Tenby. YAY.

Good for her. It's an awsome school btw.

The not-so-good-news is that she will be coming in with

DUN DUN DUN

Wait for it, Wait for it....

Yes it is none other than the boy who used to call me ~~'BlackieChan'~~ for the entire three years I was in his class. I hate to break it to you, but you aren't exactly the whitest guy in the world ok ~~Niro?~~ Have you looked in the mirror lately? Oh no! It broke XD

I wonder if he still hates my guts.... :P

It would be so weird if he did come. I hope he doesn't. Ok ok well lets forget about that shall we?

I stayed back today to help take down the decorations cuz Mr. Crombie said they were a no go. I was like "The walls are gonna crack anyway!!!" Poor Year Nines, they worked so hard :(

I went shopping with *cough* *cough* my mom on Sunday. I bought my dream Rihanna heels.

I could hear the Hallelujah chorus when I saw them :O

We very recently celebrated Chloe's 3oth. Happy Anniversary Chloe ;D

Congrats on a Happy Month. I am not a lightbulb.

Well umm I shall continue later on.

My dad is back.

Ciao :)

Bored as Hell ; I cant even think of a song!!!! - Vila.

2009-07-13T03:17:00.000-07:00

OMFG! I don't think I have had a bigger headache in my life !!!

Whats worse is that I can't stop wanting ~~HIM~~ to go ONLINE!!! GRRRRRRRRR!!!

I have a fever I think.

God I feel terrible.

I think I might join Jane on her diet.

OMIGOSH my weight is terrible.

I need to lose weight if I want to fit into the dress I bought. It's beautiful!!! Here is what it looks like. Well similar I guess. Longer and not so....revealing XD....

Striking ; 21st Century Life - Sam Sparro

2009-07-11T01:44:00.000-07:00

Hello! :)
I made an ~~AMAZING~~ discovery today. Guess what it was???
I learned how to strike out words!
Like OMG! I feel like a real blogger, but if this doesn't work and amazing is not striked out, then it didn't work ok???

Ciao for now.
Vila.

P.S I will be trying out other stuff like double words and different sizes so yeah, be prepared for more posts if you actually read my blog.

Edits ; Collide - Howie Day

2009-07-10T07:22:00.001-07:00

Hello (:

Today I decided to play around with my camera, here are some of the edits! If you guys want me to edit your pics for you send them to me cuz I have nothing better to do. It is actually very fun. I love Picnik. I am like addicted now!!!

Love,

Vila.

Series of Confusing Events - Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

2009-07-09T02:46:00.000-07:00

Wow. What a week I've had. Here is the sum up. Today's stuff is in the next post.

I don't care what they say,

I'm in love with you,

They try to pull me away,

But they don't know the truth,

My heart is crippled by the thing that I keep on closing...

Let's just do today, I don't even want to talk about the entire week, relieving all those bittersweet times. Some things that happened today cannot be mentioned because, well because it will hurt too much. I know that sounds extremely cliche, but it's the truth. I know I am not as pretty as her, but if there is one thing I do know, it's that she definately loves you more than I do. So I am officially letting go. I never thought I could lose two people in a week. But here I am, still standing, in hope that someday my special someone will come along. I know he is out there feeling just as miserable as me. With that I have hope.

Relationships ; Love Song For No One - John Mayer

2009-06-27T21:49:00.000-07:00

Searching all my days just to find you

I'm not sure who I'm looking for

I'll know it when I see you

Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom

Staying up all night just to write

A love song for no one...

Sigh...

Seems like everyone I know is in a relationship.

No, there is nothing wrong with that.

God knows they are all happy.

What bugs me is that some of them don't even love each other.

Sickening isn't it???

Being with someone just to make someone jelous, or just because they want to be with someone.

It's pitiful.

People should be ashamed of themselves.

What's gone wrong with the world???

What ever happened to sincerity and care.

Most importantly, what has happened to LOVE???

I guess good things never last...

How sad...

Mark if you read this...I hope you know what I'm talking about.

Death of a Legend ; You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

2009-06-27T01:50:00.000-07:00

As you all have already heard, Michael Jackson has indeed passed on. All I can say is that he had half of his life yet to live. People should be ashamed of themselves. When he was alive, all you wanted was to see him dead. When in true fact you were puttin up false alligations towards him. Why couldnt you people get a life??? And stop messing with MJ's? Now that he is finally gone, you say you want him back. What BS! We will all definately miss Michael, regardless of all he had 'allegedly' done. He has affected all our lives in some way. He made history. No one can replace him. This is Elvis Presley all over again. We needed him to live just a little longer, to release him new album. At least I did. I remember when I was just a little girl, sitting on my uncle's old couch, watching him dance with my auntie to Micheal Jackson songs. Memories like that don't happen everyday. I thank him sincerely for giving them to me. May God rest his soul. Goodbye Michael, I'll miss you. R.I.P from Malaysia.

My Little Brother is Nine!!! ; Happy Brithday - Click Five

2009-06-17T03:55:00.000-07:00

OMG! I never thought the day would come where my baby brother is going to be double digits soon. Looking back at all the things we used to do, and still do, I realise that I really love my brother! So Happy Birthday Vishnu! Hope we have lots more good time together. His party isn't till Saturday, but we had a small one at home. Barbeque...yumm! All my cousins and I raided Baskin Robins! The owner asked us if we could leave cuz we were so loud. HAHAHA! I'll upload pics later, once I find my cable. I lost it. Again. =="

Forget Home, I Want School ; Quando, Quando, Quando - Michael Buble

2009-06-11T01:03:00.000-07:00

Tell me when will you be mine?

Tell me Quando, Quando, Quando.

We can share a love divine.

Please dont make me wait again

When will say yes to me?

Tell me Quando Quando Quando?

You mean happiness to me ...

School was ok ok only today.

Sigh....

Prishaa :) LOL! Random!

Ok, so umm wem had this Math test today, which I will fail.

I actually thought the first paper was harder than the second one.

We watched Disturbia in the van today. That was fun.

Faris cancelled his party :(

Ummm...I missed Malay today because we had to do stuff for Miss Mayer!

WOOT! We had so much fun counting.

ICT Test was not very hard lah. Can pass. It's math im worried about.

Pssh! I AM NOT CRAZY! ;)

Mikael and Darren had a Math test today. I feel so smart ;)

I like studying magazines. So fun. Einglish is very fun these days.

Then we had PSHE instead of Drama because we had to practice our speech for Monday. We were immitating LaLa people. So fun.

Then, umm oooo we had LUNCH! Adi ditched us today. Chloe actually ate something. We asked Mia to come down with us but she did'nt want to. She did for break though.

Drama was all about movement today. So boring. I prefer dialog to movement. Words spwak louder than action. Or something like that.

Thats pretty much it. Very boring lah. Byeee :)

New Moon ; Breathe - Taylor Swift

2009-06-03T05:57:00.000-07:00

I cant,

Breathe,

Without you,

But I have to,

Breathe,

Without you,

But I have to.

New Moon trailer is finally here! WOOOOOT! Who wants to go with me? I can't wait. It's my favourite book out of all. The reason I put in Breathe by Taylor Swift is because it's perfect for how Bella feels when Edward leaves her. Well, let's talk about school shall we?

Ummm today is 4.6.09! YAY! 1 more day to
Let's see, today no piano class. Whopee! :)

I had to tell the van driver the way to Julian's house...AGAIN! Sheeesh!

Then, at school...umm nothing much happened in the morning.

Oh yeah! At science class, we played with that spring thing. OMG! So fun!

We had fun with anatomy if you know what I mean. Playing...

Mark wet my hair...again. =="

Then we had break! OMG! Something happened! ;) Prishaa has a shot with her ahem ahem admirer wink wink!

After that, we had PE! The first ever Track & Field. I am actually not as bad as I thought. Must get new running shoes!!!

Wow. Anti-Vila. That's cool. That's great. Faris, Benedict and Wayne. LOL. Gotta <3>

So tired lah at this point.

Ummm, then we had English. Surprise, surprise! I'm going first for the book review thing!

We read our books today.

Chloemo didnt bring hers.

So she borrowed my Johnny Be Good!

She started laughing at the first page itself. LOL! So loud woi!

Janey and Vivion were playing with their books instead of reading them.

Laura was a good girl today. She actually read her book.

Daniel didn't come today. I bet someone missed him! ;)

After English, we had lunch.

Lunch is always fun.

Adi comes and hangss out with us.

Or should I say...Chloe.

We went to reherse today! It was special because...(you know why) wink wink. :)

Owh yeah! Laura joined the van this month. Whoopee!

The van was so funny today. Everyone was laughing. Especially Matthius.

Anyway. Yeah dats pretty much it! I just had a rootbeer float. Yummm :D

Now I am gonna go get something to eat. Byeee :)

Kickin I't Old School ; How Far We've Come - Matchbox 20

2009-05-31T07:29:00.000-07:00

This post is for my friends at SKBD! First friends best friends right? Miss you guys soo much. I decided to post this because I don't wanna forget how totally awsome you guys are! Yes! YOU! Lemon, Sooki, Charmayne, Wang Yung, Yappie, Sarah, Abang, Megat, Ihsan...all you guys! Even though we are far apart, just remember that I will always remember and miss you guys ok! P.S Lemon, I hope you have moved on ;)

Laura's Birthday ; Happy Birthday - The Click Five

2009-05-27T22:31:00.000-07:00

Dear Laura! I noe it's kinda late...but Happy Birthday!

We went ice-skating during Laura's Party! We had lots of fun. Here are the pictures! We went ice-skating first, then we had dinner at Pizza Hut. Some girl wore the same slippers as Janey. BITCH! Laura had a birthday coke instead of cake. We bumped into Havillah. She joined us for dinner. It was sooooo much fun! Hope sha had a good one! Love you guys !

Mark ; My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

2009-05-27T22:15:00.000-07:00

Sigh....Dear, dear Mark.

How I dont love you soo.

But you are my guy best friend. And I do like it that way.

You noe we need each other. And you know you call me more than I call you. But, i want it that way. OK? You are important and I dont noe what I would do without you...but you are a very important part of my life. Sorry but thats as far as my deep feelings can be expressed in words. That's it? Happy now?

Feeling Lost ; You Don't Know Me - Michael Buble

2009-05-24T23:36:00.001-07:00

You give your hand to me
Then you say hello

I can hardly speak

My heart is beating so

And anyone can tell

You think you know me well
But you don't know me

No, you don't know the one

Who dreams of you at night

And longs to kiss your lips

And longs to hold you tight

Oh I'm just a friend

That's all I've ever been

Cause you don't know me

I never knew

The art of making love

Though my heart aches

With love for you

Afraid and shy

I've let my chance to go by

The chance that you might

Love me, too

You give your hand to me, baby

Then you say good-bye
I watch you walk away

Beside the lucky gal

No, no, you'll never ever know

The one who loves you so

Well, you don't know me

No, You Will Never Know Me <3

I'll sit here and wait, pray and hope that someday you will realise that we were made for each other. Till then, till I find you, till you are mine, I'll be waiting, wishing and wanting you. I hurt myself today to see if I can still feel. I like you, I really do. I might even...love....but its ok, its alright. I've been fine without you, really. But, when the nights get cold, and the rain starts to fall, I long for you. My heart aches knowing you and me will not be. Just remember that those other girls, yes they are beautiful. But do they love you as much as I do? Do they? I know that I have never quite felt so heart-broken before. Maybe it's because...I really with all my heart believed that you might feel the same way. But now I know you don't. I'm sick of being heart-broken. There has to be someone for me out there, and he is just as miserable as I am now. Sigh...Here's to hoping you feel miserable now...

Schoolio is Coolio :) Everything - Micheal Buble

2009-05-19T04:25:00.000-07:00

And in this crazy life,

Through these crazy times

It's you, it's you,

You make me sing.

You're every line,

You're every word....

YOU ARE EVERYTHING :)

Yeap my friends are everything!

Ah school! I have always loved it! Let's see what happened today! Shall we?

First...Our van was very early today! Surprise, surprise!

We had assembly. Just Do It - Nike LOL!

Then Oh yea we got our Battle of The Books certificate...So embarassing!

Pfft! No one says my name right! =.=

Janey won the Easter Egg thing! LOL!

She won chocolate! Yumm....

Then we had Malay! Wow talk about boring...

We had to continue our syarahan thingy...

But everyone was still making so much noise! LOL! Edmund got kicked out! He and the *ahem ahem* so called 'gang' we really testing Mr. Hasny.

Then we had Maths...it's always fun...I LOVE MATHS! Miss Kuok is really funny. So sarcastic! HAHAHAHAHA :)

Mark is a retard. Well, so am I. We were fighting and then Faris was like Aiyoo you guys ah! Tsk, tsk, tsk. So funny!

Then we had break...I can'te remember what I ate...I don't think I did.

I love spending break with Laura, Janey, Chloe, Vivian, Mark, Vin, Daniel, Gnaegi and alot more lah...but that's mainly it.

Janey gave all of us CHOCOLATE! :)

Then we went to Miss Ana's room. Where both Mark and Gnaegi asked me to marry them! Sigh what's a girl to do?

They all started talking about our 'wedding'

LOL! Especially Daniel... Ooooo somone is jelous! Cheh, no lah!

Then we had break....ah then nothing much happened.

In Art Ronald asked me to stand up nd he took my chair. LOL!

Then...ummm we had free time in Geography cuz Mr.Muru didnt come.

Mr Hasny kept staring at his watch.

Then Mrs. Lim came in amd scolded some of the boys cuz they brought a hrd drive to school and were playing games on it.

So smart rite?

Then, we had a very talkative lunch without Mark and Chloe!

I read Adi's girfriend's messages!

So cheesy!

I figuired out a perfect word to describe BENEDICT = VAIN!

Like DUH! Why did'nt I think of that before?

Then after that. Mark stole my Science books.

I stole Adi's pendrive. He still hasn't noticed!

Asked Julian to give it to him. Sheesh! Adi, Adi, Adi!

As of now, I am blogging and Facebooking...

And worrying about my History test results.

I AM SO SCARED!

I have finally updated my blog... Happy Laura?

I hope you are! ;)

Can't Do It Anymore; 7 Things - Miley Cyrus

2009-05-12T03:16:00.000-07:00

The 7 things I hate about you,
1) You are VAIN
2) Your GAMES
3) You are INSECURE
4) You LOVE me, you LIKE her
5) You make me LAUGH
6) You make me CRY
7) I don't know which SIDE TO BUY

But the thing that I hate the most about you is....

YOU MAKE ME LOVE YOU!

Just Not Feeling The Love; Wonderful World - James Morrison

2009-05-11T06:37:00.000-07:00

I know that it's a wonderful world

but

I can't feel it right now.

It seems like everyone has someone you know? I just wish I had someone too. I know I may disept every single detail and make the simplest things seem crucial, but at least I know I'm getting somewhere. It's because I understand feeling as small as humanly possible, and how it can ache in places I never knew existed. I just wish I could have my very own shoulder to cry on. Someone to tell me I'm special even when I know I'm not. For some reason I'm just now feeling the love. I just want someone to love me for who I am rather than who I could be. Someone who loves me flaws and all. Sigh...I am so afraid of ending up like some successful and independent woman with no personal life what-so-ever. All alone in my beautiful apartment with no one to share it with. Sad, depressed and alone. Pffft what a wonderful world! Boy is life messed up! Here's to hoping stuff like that wont happen to me!

School Assembly Rehersal ; Walking On Sunshine - Katrina and the Waves

2009-05-07T17:47:00.001-07:00

WOOOT! I am at school now. ICT. Mr. Muru did'nt come, which was a good thing considering the fact that I didn't do my homework. I cut my hair yesterday. it looks like my grandmother1Yes, it looks the same but well...shorter. I guess it takes som gettin used to. Ummmmm.....ALISON WENT HOME!!! I actually thought she shouldnt have. Kris lah. I still love him though. Yesterday, Mr.Lee started to use the whislte treatment. So annoying! It was so loud. I really don't like Science. Laura's blog is soo cute! ^_^ We are thinking of doing a music performance in the Tenby's Got Talent. Me, Chloe, Laura, Janey and Vivian. We are gonna rock. If you have any suggestions please comment! As for now...I'll be walking on Sunshine! ;)

Waterfalls - TLC

2009-05-07T17:38:00.000-07:00

Don't go chasing waterfalls,

Please stick to the rivers and the lakes that your used to.

I know that you're gonna have it your way,

or nothing at all but,

I think your moving too fast....

Love this song! TLC! You rock!

Road To Hollywood; Malaysia Truly Asia - Unknown

2009-05-04T02:17:00.000-07:00

Road to Hollywood friggin rocked! They were soo good! OMG! It's true. Malaysia has talent man. Most of them were whay better than some of the people on American Idol. Seriously. We rock!

Adam; Your So Gay, Katy Perry.

2009-05-01T00:31:00.000-07:00

Adam you suck. You are only screaming when you are singing, and you are getting boring. I hate you. Go kiss more guys and die. Anoop is gna beat the crap out of you. (selling albums, not winning american idol!) Here are some pictures of him gay! Am I right or am I right?

From here on out, everytime I blog, the title will be a song I love today. Cool rite? Like the one today! LOL! I HATE ADAM!

Anoop Desai <3

2009-04-27T01:16:00.000-07:00

This post is a tribute to the awsomeness of Anoop Desai. May you always be awsome! I LOVE ANOOP DESAI! Please be part of the Anoop Troop even if he is no longer on the show. So Anoop, whereever you are, just remember, even when the whole world hates your guts, there will be this girl named Vila to be by your side always. Always and forever!

Assembly

2009-04-24T07:38:00.001-07:00

Our Assembly friggin rocks! Can't tell what we are doing but I guarantee it will be great! Starting to love the bubble gum pop! songs. Like David Arculeta and Demi Lovato. Listen to Don't Forget. Damn sad! I like almost cried! I'm gonna put it on my blog now.
I actually couldnt care less about guys now. Pfft! I'ts not even worth it! We came alone, we are leaving alone. we might as well stay alone rite? Yes Rite.

Umm lets see school....

Scared to death about PTC Meeting. Hope I dont have to go! HAHAHA! Faris, Syafiq and Wayne kena from Miss Mayer for misbehaving in BM class. Poor them. Honestly, after all this while hearing Wayne sing, I till don't know how he sounds. The new kid was here today. Ummm Cameron rite Janey? LOL! I tried to play football today. But I sucked. Lunch seemed to be very long today. Thankfully! I dont ever feel like going home anymore. It's such a non-home-like place. School is my forte. I cant help but be who I am around all my totally amazing friends. I guess they accept me for who i am rather than who I could be. I wanna go watch 17 Again on Friday! Cannot wait lah. Not sure if my parents will let though. Anyway I'll just have to ask and see.

School :)

2009-04-17T01:36:00.000-07:00

Hey hey!
School was so fun tdy! :)
We had to work on our assembly rite, me and Chloe are doing a powerpoint. When we finished we went to go see Vivian play. LOL! Damn fun woi! Miss Mayer asked me to help out ppl.... I cant say hu then everyone will know about our assembly. But it was so fun! Hated coming home though. I really hate home. :( Love school! Ciao!

Free Fallin'

2009-04-11T23:22:00.000-07:00

Hey, Life is great. It just sucks that I didnt notice it earlier. I realise that every tear has it's meaning. Thanks John Mayer for telling me that you can dream with a broken heart, and thats exactly what I'm doing. Free Falling. And boy...it feels pretty darn good. :)

Just Kidding...

2009-04-10T02:18:00.000-07:00

Mark, what the hell where you thinking? That I want to be with you? HELL NO! Me and you make sense? Yes we do! But that doesnt mean I will love you in any way but just a friend. Maybe a best friend. But never more. Can you get that into your thick head? I was just joking. We could be great togather, but obviously we dont see our relationship going as far as they say. OK? Understand? Now....when are you gonna ask me out? LOL! JK JK!

Not As Good As It's Supposed To...

2009-04-09T01:53:00.001-07:00

Hey,
Getting over him is soo much harder than I thought it would be. I can't help but feel as though I pushed to hard. It's like they say, Love is like a butterfly, hold it too close and you will crush it. Hold it too loose and it will fade away. I think he is avoiding me. Not texting back, signing out as soon as he realises I'm online. He thinks I'm stalking him. AARRGGH! I made a mistake. Sofia and Mark both said he was no good. Why did'nt I listen? I'll tell you why. In the true words of Kate Winslet:

Because you're hoping you're wrong. And every time he does something that tells you he's no good, you ignore it. And every time he comes through and suprises you, he wins you over, and you lose that argument with yourself, that she's not for you.

Exaclty. =.=

Here's another one:

Shush. You broke my heart. And you acted like somehow it was my fault, my misunderstanding, and I was too in love with you to ever be mad at you, so I just punished myself! For years! But you waltzing in here on my lovely Christmas holiday, and telling me that you don't want to lose me whilst you're about to get MARRIED, somehow newly entitles me to say, it's over. This - This twisted, toxic THING between us, is finally finished! I'm miraculously done being in love with you! Ha! I've got a life to start living. [Picks up Jasper's jacket, walking to the door]

Even more exact.

Another:

I've found almost everything ever written about love to be true. Shakespeare said "Journeys end in lovers meeting." What an extraordinary thought. Personally, I have not experienced anything remotely close to that, but I am more than willing to believe Shakespeare had. I suppose I think about love more than anyone really should. I am constantly amazed by its sheer power to alter and define our lives. It was Shakespeare who also said "love is blind". Now that is something I know to be true. For some quite inexplicably, love fades; for others love is simply lost. But then of course love can also be found, even if just for the night. And then, there's another kind of love: the cruelest kind. The one that almost kills its victims. Its called unrequited love. Of that I am an expert. Most love stories are about people who fall in love with each other. But what about the rest of us? What about our stories, those of us who fall in love alone? We are the victims of the one sided affair. We are the cursed of the loved ones. We are the unloved ones, the walking wounded. The handicapped without the advantage of a great parking space! Yes, you are looking at one such individual. And I have willingly loved that man for over three miserable years! The absolute worst years of my life! The worst Christmas', the worst Birthday's, New Years Eve's brought in by tears and valium. These years that I have been in love have been the darkest days of my life. All because I've been cursed by being in love with a man who does not and will not love me back. Oh god, just the sight of him! Heart pounding! Throat thickening! Absolutely can't swallow! All the usual symptoms.

So true? Isn't it?

Really good quotes from this movie! This fits me perfectly:

I understand feeling as small and as insignificant as humanly possible. And how it can actually ache in places you didn't know you had inside you. And it doesn't matter how many new haircuts you get, or gyms you join, or how many glasses of chardonnay you drink with your girlfriends... you still go to bed every night going over every detail and wonder what you did wrong or how you could have misunderstood. And how in the hell for that brief moment you could think that you were that happy. And sometimes you can even convince yourself that he'll see the light and show up at your door. And after all that, however long all that may be, you'll go somewhere new. And you'll meet people who make you feel worthwhile again. And little pieces of your soul will finally come back. And all that fuzzy stuff, those years of your life that you wasted, that will eventually begin to fade.

Why us? Tell me? Why

Holiday In Redang

2009-04-08T00:59:00.000-07:00

Why God. WHY? The only reason I went on the trip was to have a great time! And forget about him! Why do you have to put in lovesick people everywhere? In the plane, the bus, on the beach....heck even in the movies? WHY? AAAAAARRRRRRRGGGGGGGHHHHHH. it just made the trip so worthless.

Last Day of Term 2

2009-04-03T22:20:00.000-07:00

OMFG! It was the best and the worst day ever! First I found out that both the guys I like may not....do not like me back. Then, I get a totally suckish report! But as the day went on....I really enjoyed it. Thanks to my totally awsome friends! Love you guys forever! Laura, Chloe, Jane and Vivian. You guys are the best ever. Tribute to them! Hope you guys come see this entry!

Im Free!

2009-04-02T20:44:00.000-07:00

I'm done! I waited for you. We could have been perfect. You had your chance. All the signs proved that you did like me. Well I guess not. You had me for a long time. Heck, you had me at hello. ( yes it sounds very cheesy!) You didn't make your move. You didn't take a chance. Well guess what? You've lost me. I'm gone. I woke up this morning and realised that somewhere along the sorrow filled road I lost myself. I lost Vila. The girl couldn't care less about what everyone else thinks about her. The bubbly, song filled girl. To think some idiotic guy made such a strong girl disappear. I realise now that a guy that isn't even worth it. Yeah. Your not even worth a single tear I cry. So go on. Flirt with those girls you don't have a chance with. All those other girls, yea they are beautiful, but would they write a song for you? NO! I did, and I know now that you didn't deserve it. so you go on. Be happy and when someone breaks your heart, don't come crying to me. Because I don't have a lot of sympathy for assholes. I'm just waiting for that guy who will do things for me, take care of me, offer to help me even when I don't ask for it. Someone who is going to treat me right. As of now, I have more important things to think about. I have grat parents, great friends and a great life. Dont need you messing it up jerk! So bye bye baby! Cuz I'm free of you! And it feels really good!

Dilemma

2009-03-30T21:04:00.000-07:00

Alex Pettyfer or Max Thieriot? You choose!

Ahh Sekolah!

2009-03-27T04:34:00.000-07:00

And somebody kept shooting glances at Vila.
Vila has an ad-mi-rer! >:D

--- Jane Lee's Blog

Firstly, he is shit hotttttt!

Secondly, I don't think he is into me like Chloe and Jane say.

Thirdly, I really hope he is! ;] So friggin hottt!

Ok, Friday...huh.

Nothin much! Quite fun actually. Miss Mayer said I'm not graceful. Well I don't balme her. LOL.

Nobody listens during Malay. No idea why. Well, I do, but no need to say lerr.

I'm happy for Chloe. We know why. ;]

I officially love basketball. Jane, Chloe, Laura and Vivian.

I'm sorry Mark. I dont like anyone more than you!

Shit! Taekwando class now. Ciao!

I LOVE YOU!

2009-03-27T04:24:00.000-07:00

There's only one thing

Two do,

Three words,

Four you!

I LOVE YOU!

Sing A Long Song

2009-03-27T04:15:00.000-07:00

I wrote this song,

It's not too long,

Cuz I'm the one who loves you.

I wrote this song,

This cant be wrong

I don't wanna smile without ya!

I just want to make you happy,

But maybe you want nothing at all.

How I wish that you're meant to be

Forever and a day with me!

I LOVE YOU :]

Prom

2009-03-20T01:25:00.000-07:00

I seriously need a date for prom cuz everyone is like wanting to have one so. I have to get a dude to go with!!! Help me!

American Idol

2009-03-14T01:48:00.001-07:00

Have I ever mentioned how much I love American Idol? Well here it goes! You ready? I LOVE American Idol! Here are some of my favourites throughout the season! WARNING! The favourites may not have won...but they still rock my socks! Im no good at lists so they are not in order!

1. Elliot Yamin

2. Jason Castro

3. Anoop Desai

5. Kris Allen

6. Matt Giraud(love this dude! Check him out on youtube please!)

Vivian's Birthday Party!

2009-03-06T19:10:00.000-08:00

Happy Birthday Vivian! Hey hey you you! I went for one of the bestest birthday partys ever! We had like so much fun! Pics are the same as on facebook! LOL! xoxo Vivian! Love ya!

Mark....

2009-03-03T02:06:00.000-08:00

AAAARRRGGHHHH....Mark why did you cut yourself??? Why!!! She is a f***ing bitch ok!!! Just forget abt her and move on! Emoness is overrated! Just move on ok...i miss the old you! Trust me...Dont do it ok???

It Hurts....

2009-01-31T06:58:00.000-08:00

It hurts not being able to tell him. It hurts watching him with all those other girls. It hurts that he will not notice me. It hurts that he hates me. It hurts when he looks at me. It hurts when he doesnt. It hurts when he talks to me. It hurts when he doesnt. It hurts when he watches me. It hurts when he doesnt. It hurts when I think about him. It hurts when I dont. But most of all it kills me to know that we will never be...

Misses Charmayne!

2009-01-30T01:40:00.000-08:00

God Charmayne miss u!!!! I cant believe I still love the Jonas Brothers. Tribute to them and you! Fav Song So Far!: Sorry!

Broken hearts and last goodbyes,restless nights

But lullabies helps to make this pain go away

I realize I let you down

Told you that I'd be around

I'm building up the strength just to say

I'm Sorry

For breaking all the promises that

I wasn't around to keepIt's on me,

This time is the last time

I will ever beg you to stay

But you're already on your way

Filled with sorrow, filled with pain

Knowing that I am to blame

For leaving your heart out in the rain

And I know you're gonna walk away

And leave me with the price to pay

Before you go I wanted to say that

Can't make it alive on my own

But if you have to go,

Then please girl, just leave me alone'

Cause I don't want to see

You and me going our separate ways...So Im begging you Charmayne! Please come to my party!

Doesnt Exist...

2009-01-28T01:02:00.001-08:00

Lets face it....we all know that guy doesnt exsist! Might as well give up hope! :'(

It Is Hard to Believe...

2009-01-25T00:17:00.000-08:00

Actually when you think about it, it is hard to believe that Nicole has had a bf before...We were playing truth or dare and ben2 asked me if I have had a bf before. I said no lah. I wasnt lying man. Its so damn sad. Ive never even had a proper Valentine. Not even a secret one. No chocolates, no roses...but I never seened to care until...well until it caught up to me. It feels really weird when I think about why I havent had one. I basically have nothing to offer. I mean Im not that pretty, Im not a hot slut, I dont have sexy legs. Im not very addictive to talk to am I??? NO! Awww I really hope I get at least a Valentine this year man...This feelin sucks!

Untouchable...

2009-01-18T05:23:00.000-08:00

Your soo close...

Untouchable like a distant diamond sky

Im reaching out

And I just can't tell you why

I'm caught up in you

Untouchable burning brighter than the sun

And when you're close

I feel like coming undone

In the middle of the night

When I'm in this dream

It's like a million little stars

Spelling out your name

You gotta come on, come on

Say that we'll be together

Come on, come on

Little taste of heaven....

Waiting On That Guy...

2009-01-12T01:19:00.000-08:00

this is really sweet........

When a Girl is quiet ... millions of things are running in her mind

When a Girl is not arguing ... she is thinking deeply.♥

When a Girl looks at u with eyes full of questions ... she is wondering how long you will be around.♥

When a Girl answers ' I'm fine ' after a few seconds ... she is not at all fine.♥

When a Girl stares at you ... she is wondering why you are lying.

When a Girl lays on your chest ... she is wishing for you to be hers forever.♥

When a Girl wants to see you everyday... she wants to be pampered.

When a Girl says ' I love you ' ... she means it.♥

When a Girl says ' I miss you ' ... no one in this world can miss you more than that.♥

Life only comes around once make sure u spend it with the right person...

Find a Guy .. who calls you beautiful instead of hot. who calls you back when you hang up on him.♥

who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead.♥>Who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats.♥

Who holds your hand in front of his friends. ♥

Who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you♥

Who turns to his friends and says, ' That's her!! '

If you open this you have to repost it, guy or girl, or you will have bad luck for the rest of your life!!!!! If I don't get this back I guess your not my friend. If you have a lot of love for someone. copy and send this to your whole list. In 5 minutes your true love will call or message you. Tonight at midnight your true love will realize they like you. Something good will happen to you at approx. 1:42 P.M. tomorrow, it could be anywhere. So get ready for the biggest shock of your life. If you break this chainyou will be cursed with relationship problems for the most important time of your life. Send this to 15 people in 15 minutes to carry on the chain...and spare yourself the emotional stress. Dont you wanna find that guy???

2009-01-10T05:36:00.000-08:00

Cant you see my heart is heavy

Just because I know you're leaving
Sometimes I wish you could read my mind

Look at me I'm always lost,

But I am found and I can't believe it

There is just one more thing I have to ask

Stay with me for a while

Stay with me and I'll smile

Never leave and you'll see

Stay with me, will you please?

Drowning in a topaz sea and

Who knew death could be comforting

The blackness of the past is so far away

I see you and then it hits me

It's no wonder you eclipse me

Everything I wanted has come true

And so our paths have crossed

The lion and the lamb

Please tell me you'll never leave me

You're part of who I am

Stay with me for a while

Stay with me and I'll smile

Never leave and you'll see

Stay with me, will you please?

You Have No Idea...How Much You Hurt Me!

2009-01-10T05:01:00.000-08:00

The Sun's Lament..

2009-01-10T04:44:00.000-08:00

As I sit there so consumed. Does he even know the truth? Of what happened here tonight? Does he remember who he was? Brothers, sisters, parents? Does he even have a name? Will he change my mind? Do I want to be that way? Will it pass in time? Will I want to everyday? Does the future that I want mean losing all the present? I think in this case that it does. Though I picture myself there. When I see him tremble. The picture starts to fade away. Is it worth the price? Will I make it past the pain? Leave it all behind. Can I live an endless day? He stares at me piercing my soulIs it worth losing all I know? He stares at me how can I tell? A reflection of my future self? I dont know...

Im soo team Jacob man!

We Have A Serious Problem!

2009-01-09T03:50:00.000-08:00

Its OFFICIAL!

Daniel Ng is really funny. The jokes we had cannot be mentioned cuz...wel cuz they are a bit sick...LOL! I wanna put pics of Elisha being weird here from Vivian's Blog.(Thanks!) So here they are:--

2009-01-06T03:25:00.000-08:00

Twilight Survey

Team Edward or Jacob? - Edward

Vampire or Werewolf? - Vampire

Live forever with the one you love even though its not safe for them, or leave them thining its for the better? - The first one

Favorite Twilight character? - Jacob and Edward

Least favorite Twilight character? - Victoria

Favorite couple? - Edward and Bella

Least favorite couple? - James and Victoria

Would you rather have super strength, super speed, or read minds? - Read minds.

Favorite Edward "trait"? - Ability to take my breath away all the time...

Who do you like better? Female Twilight characters, or male? - Male.

Favorite book in the series? - All

Least favorite book in the series? - None

Do you like the romance or the action better? - I like the way it mixes.

Favorite line or passage from the books? - What do you want most in the world??? You. No I meant something you dont already have.

Are you looking forward to the movie?/What do you think of the movie? - Loved it. I thought the book was better though.

Take This Twilight Survey and other Fun Surveys at Quizopolis.com

Jacob Black

2009-01-06T02:20:00.000-08:00

I think Ive finally figured out why Jacob Black seems so damn cruel. Sure he seems all tough outside, but truth is he's hurting like hell inside. I completely understand. He just puts up an act so that he doesn't seem weak. He is lost without Bella and I think he is pretty well aware of it. Damn, all this time spent hating so much when I realised that I'm more like him than I'd like to admit. I feel strangely comforted by the fact that I'm not the only one. When I came to Tenby, I like sweared to myself that I wouldnt like anyone but it obviously didnt work. I guess liking someone has a way of finding you. And when it leaves it doesnt completely go away. A part of it will always be with you. Thats the part that hurts the most for me cause its the hardest to let go. That part always has a power over me. So for the fact that Jacob Black can stand Bella being so close to him...I salute him. But then again he isnt even real! Hey Jacob You Rock!

Hey Stephen, Taylor Swift.

2009-01-03T01:01:00.000-08:00

Of all the girls tossing rock at your window,

Ill be the one standing there even when its cold.

Hey Stephen,

boy you might have me believeing I dont always have to be alone.

Cooking Class!

2008-12-30T23:05:00.000-08:00

Hey. During the oh so boring holidays, I went for a cooking class. Actually, I didnt even want ot at all. Anyway there were alot of nice ppl lah. I took pics and videos. Ill upload later. So weird lah I cant beleive the year is gonna end. Im not exactly happy. I think Im more releived than happy. Ill send the pics from the party too. Stay the same ok guys??? Miss u all!!!

<----Dats Kitty

See this is Shahril.( Was he posing???)

50 Random Questions

2008-12-28T05:56:00.000-08:00

50 Random Questions

1. Where were you 3 hours ago?

Outside eating bbq chicken.

2. Who are you in love with?

Myself, Rob Pattinson/Edward Cullen

3. Have you ever eaten a crayon?

Wow this is about as random as it gets. No.

4. Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Yes, my pencilbox.

5. When is the last time you went to the mall?

This morning

6. Are you wearing socks right now?

No.

7. Do you have a car worth over $2,000?

Im not old enogh to drive.

8. When was the last time you drove out of town?

Yesterday.

9. Have you been to the movies in the last 5 days?

Yes. Just to see the Twilight poster.

10. Are you hot?

No. Im cold.

11. What was the last thing you had to drink?

Ice Water.

12. What are you wearing right now?

PJ's.

13. Do you wash your car or let the car wash do it?

Car wash.

14. Last food that you ate?

Bbq Chicken.

15. Where were you last week at this time?

The same place I am now.

16. Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

No.

17. When is the last time you ran?

2 mins ago.

18. What's the last sporting event you watched?

Badminton.

19. What is your favorite animal?

Lions.

20. Your dream vacation?

Just to stay at home alone.

21. Last person's house you were in?

My uncle's.

22. Worst injury you've ever had?

Heart injury! =(

23. Have you been in love?

Yes with myself.

24. Do you miss anyone right now?

Yes. Alot of ppl

25. Last play you saw?

Never watched one.

26. What is your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?

27. What are your plans for tonight?

Dunno...U tell me!

28. Who is the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?

I dont have MySpace.

29. Next trip you are going to take?

To school.

30. Ever go to camp?

Yes. Im going tmr.

31. Were you an honor roll student in school?

I dont noe yet.

32. What do you want to know about the future?

I dont.

33. Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

Yes.

34. Are you due sometime this year for a doctor's visit?

No i see my mom everyday.

35. Where is your best friend?

In America.

36. How is your best friend?

Fine.

37. Do you have a tan?

No.

38. What are you listening to right now?

Mad-Ne-Yo

39. Do you collect anything?

Yes. Music.

40. Who is the biggest gossiper you know?

LOL. Vivian...bt I like it.

41. Last time you got stopped by a cop or pulled over?

Never.

42. Have you ever drank your soda from a straw?

No. Always frm the can.

43. What does your last text message say?

LOL...Umm wen r u watchin Twilight???

44. Do you like hot sauce?

Love it.

45. Last time you took a shower?

Half an hour ago.

46. Do you need to do laundry?

Yess.

47. What is your heritage?

Huh???

48. Are you someone's best friend?

I havent asked...I hope so..

49. Are you rich?

NO.

50. What were you doing at 12AM last night?

Watchin Eagle Eye!!!! Love it man!

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Crazy Random Survey

2008-12-24T02:10:00.000-08:00

Wild and Crazy Random Survey
Take this fun survey filled with crazy random questions.
Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?	Yes.
How do you flush the toilet in public?	With my hands lah!
Do you wear your seatbelt in the car?	Only if the police is watching.
Do you have a crush on someone?	Yes :(
Name one thing you worry about running out of.	Love & Music
What famous person do you (or other people) think you resemble?	Im too unique. Sorry none
What is your favorite pizza topping?	Peperoni
Do you crack your knuckles?	No
What song do you hate the most	When I Grow Up
Did just mentioning that song make it get stuck in your head?	Yes
What are your super powers?	I observe people really well
Peppermint or spearmint?	Whats Spearmint???
Where are your car keys?	I dont have a car
Whose answers to this questionnaire do you want to hear?	My crush's
What's your most annoying habit?	Talking too much
Where did you last go on vacation?	Langkawi
What is your best physical feature?	My eyes
What CD is closest to you right now?	James Morrison
What 3 things can always be found in your refrigerator?	It changes by season
What superstition do you believe/practice?	Umm, no cutting you fingernails after 6
What color are your bed sheets?	Red
Would you rather be a fish or a bird?	Bird
Do you talk on your cell phone when you drive?	I dont drive...yet
What are your favorite sayings?	The only thing worse than losing someone, is not having them in the first place...and other Twilight quotes.
What song(s) do you sing most often in the shower?	Chasing Pavements, If the Rain Must Fall, If You Dont Wanna Love Me...
If you could go back or forward in time,where would you go?	Backward
What is your favorite Harrison Ford movie?	I have never watched any
What CD is in your stereo?	Just my iPod music.
What CD will be in your stereo in a few minutes?	The same as before
How many kids do you plan on having?	I dont think that far ahead
If you could kiss anyone who would it be?	blushes You know hu...
What do you do when no one is watching?	Dance & Cry
If they made a movie about your life, what actor/actress would be you?	I dont think anyone fits lah.
Would you rather die in a blaze of glory or peacefully in your sleep?	In my sleep
Coffee or Tea	Coffee
Favorite musician(s)/bands you've seen in concert?	None
Have you ever been in love?	I dont think so...if u dont count myself
Do you talk to yourself?	Yes. Alot
Take this survey

Rondom Survey! :)

2008-12-24T01:20:00.000-08:00

What?
Vila
Favorite color?
Red
Where are your feet right now?
Under my body
Do you believe in fairy tales?
No.
Do you like pickles?
Yes!

Fave Actors

2008-12-22T21:41:00.000-08:00

Here are some of my fave actors. Here we go! The following is not in order:--

1. Robert Pattinson(Was there ever a doubt???)

2. James Marsden(The best smile in the world!)

3. Alex Pettyfer(Wild Child!!! OMG!)

4. Columbus Short(Love the thing he does with his teeth and his tongue!)

5. Eric Bana(Only in Lucky You)

6. Taylor Launter(Short Hair!)

7. Cam Gigandet(Can u beleive there are three ppl on the list frm Twilight? Cuz i can!)

8. Drew Tyler Bell(looks a bit like Robert Pattinson rite???)

9. River Pheonix( Love his name. So sad he passed away!)

Dats all for now. If u have any suggestions pls comment! LOL....

Me And My Bro Being Idiots...

2008-12-21T00:44:00.000-08:00

Saturday...Candy Floss Fun

2008-12-20T04:30:00.001-08:00

Ello! Me, My mom and my bro all went to Midvalley to buy stuff. On the way we did alot of stuff but I didnt have my camera to take pics. I used my mom's phone when we we got to the car. It was soo funny.

Shattered

2008-12-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

In a way I need a change from this awful scene. Another time, another place, another everything, but its always back to you.I ran out of the house into the pouring rain, Feeling lost, Full of thoughts still all about you. Its always back to you.

But I'm gone without you. Yes I'm gone without you. I'm nothing without you...

How many times can I break till I shatter??? Over the line can't define what I'm after. I always fall right back down. Give me a break let me make my own pattern. All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered. I always turn the car around.

I had no idea that the night would be so damn long. Took it all out on the street While the rain still pours and the wind still blows. They push me right to you.

But I'm gone without you. Yeah I'm gone without you. I'm empty without you...

How many times can I break till I shatter? Over the line can't define what I'm after. I always fall right back down. Give me a break let me make my own pattern. All that it takes is some time but I'm shattered. I always turn the car around

Don't wanna turn that car around. I gotta turn this thing around...

Nightmares

2008-12-11T22:43:00.000-08:00

You know what hoilidays suck. I wish someone would call me!!! Ugh!!! I think im losing it. Oh ya, I lost my D&T project, which Elisha is gonna kill me for. I woke up screaming today. Dreaming of the worst possible things in the world emptiness, loneliness, deprivation, do I even have to go on??? I was in the world where everonr looked the same and I couldnt find myself anywhere. I was staring at me. right at me. I was crying by the side of a road that was empty too. Who ever reads this will be bored to death if I continue...So I wont. Im wondering what to name this post....

Me Crazy About Rob Pattinson!!!

2008-12-10T23:14:00.000-08:00

As you all know, he aint mine...how sad...I was really bored...the pics suck I know...My little bro took them...LOL!!!

Love Quotes from Movies...( So cute! ^_^)

2008-12-07T05:00:00.000-08:00

A collection of romantic movie love quotes from a variety of movies.

You are what you love, not what loves you. That's what I decided a long time ago.
-- Adaptation

How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
-- Annie

This kind of certainty comes but once in a lifetime.
-- Bridges of Madison County

...someday my wish is for him to hold me in his arms, in a sea of deep blue, together at last, together as two.
-- Can't Buy Me Love

Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two.
-- Captain Corelli's Mandolin

If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever?
-- Casper

A dream is a wish your heart makes.
-- Cinderella

Love is not a feeling, it's an ability.
-- Dan in Real Life

There are only four questions of value in life.What is sacred?Of what is the spirit made of?What is worth living for?What is worth dying for?The answer to each is the same. Only love.
-- Don Juan Demarco

You're a romantic. You have a lyrical soul. You can love under the best and worst conditions.
-- Drew Barymore, "Fever Pitch"

Life is like a box of choclates, you never know what your gonna get.
-- Forest Gump

When you love someone,And you love them with your heart,It never disappears,When you're apart.And when you love someoneAnd you've done all you can do,You set them free,And if that love was true...When you love someoneIt will all come back to you.
-- Forget Paris

It doesn't matter if the guy is perfect or the girl is perfect, as long as they are perfect for each other.
-- Good Will Hunting

You're not perfect sport, and let me save you the suspense, this girl you met, she isn't perfect either. But the question is whether or not you're perfect for each other.
-- Good Will Hunting

Love actually is all around us.
-- Hugh Grant, Love Actually

You make me want to be a better man.
-- Jack Nicholson, "As Good As It Gets"

When a divorce lawyer gets married it's the triumph of hope over experience.
-- Love is a Four Letter Word

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return.
-- Moulin Rouge

Love is a many splendid thing; Love lift us up where we belong; All you need is love.
-- Moulin Rouge

Your eyes are the sweetest stars I've ever seen.
-- Moulin Rouge

Storm clouds may gather and stars may collide, but I love you, until the end of time.
-- Moulin Rouge

We should be lovers, and that's a fact.
-- Moulin Rouge

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place,suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace,suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste,it all revolves around you.
-- Moulin Rouge

There's an Italian painter, named Carlotti, and he defined beauty...He said it was the summation of the parts, working together in such a way that nothing needed to be added, taken away, or altered, and thats you, you're beautiful.
-- Nicolas Cage, Next

I am someone else when I'm with you, someone more like myself.
-- Original Sin

I gave her my heart and she gave me a pen.
-- Say Anything

Nobody thinks it will work, do they? No. You just described every great success story.
-- Say Anything, Lloyd Dobler and Diane Court

If the people we love are stolen from us,The way to have them live on, is to remember them.Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever.
-- The Crow

In these dreams I've loved you so, that by now I think I know what it's like to be loved by you. I will love being loved by you.

-- The King and I

Summer romances begin for all kinds of reasons, but when all is said and done, they have one thing in common. They're shooting stars, a spectacular moment of light in the heavens, fleeting glimpse of eternity, and in a flash they're gone.
-- The Notebook

Hearts will be practical only when they are made unbreakable.
-- The Wizard of Oz

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of

your life to start as soon as possible.
-- When Harry Met Sally

I love that you get cold when it is 71 degrees out. I love that it takes you an hour and a half to order a sandwich. I love that you get a little crinkle in your nose when you're looking at me like I'm nuts. I love that after I spend day with you, I can still smell your perfume on my clothes. And I love that you are the last person I want to talk to before I go to sleep at night. And it's not because I'm lonely, and it's not because it's New Year's Eve. I came here tonight because when you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.
-- When Harry Met Sally

Cute are'nt they???

I thought so too...

Sad Love Quotes

2008-12-06T05:27:00.000-08:00

Sometimes you love something so much that it hurts to leave it, but you must. Sometimes it hurts too much to hold on to that thing you love. And sometimes you let go of what you love because it hurts, but then just sometimes... you get it back and live happily ever after.
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Why do people have to lose things to find out what they really mean?
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When you are in love and you get hurt, it’s like a cut... it will heal, but there will always be a scar.
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May God put a spell on you... so you won’t forget me.
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Whenever I cried he would always make me feel like he would change the world if he could so it couldn't hurt me anymore. But now I’m crying and he's not here
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You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.
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When I see you smile and know that it is not for me, that is when I will miss you the most.
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When you said forever, you meant a few months. When I said forever, I meant every day until I died. When you said always, you meant until you couldn't handle it anymore. When I said always, I meant until time ended. When you said you loved me, you meant I was no different from any other girl. When I said I loved you, I meant I had never felt what I felt for you.
* * * * * * * * *was never one to patiently pick up broken fragments and glue them together again and tell myself that the mended whole was as good as new. What is broken is broken -- and I'd rather remember it as it was at its best than mend it and see the broken places as long as I lived. unknown sad love quotes
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With you my heart will always stay. With you my thoughts will be every day. You remain to be the one that I regret letting get away. Why didn't I say what I needed to say? You are the one I will always use my wishes on. You are the one I will always wish was never gone. I'll constantly wonder what went wrong. I'll forever think of what I could've did that was never done.
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I don't miss him, I miss who I thought he was

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I miss you a little, I guess you could say, a little too much, a little too often, and a little more each day

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There's this place in me where your finger prints still rest... your kisses still linger and your whispers softly echo... It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me
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A teardrop is insignificant in a pool of water, but it can touch the soul as it runs down someone’s face.
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Colourful Much???

2008-12-06T05:10:00.000-08:00

red= love, hatred.

yellow= coward, excited.

blue= melancholic, sad.

green=inexperienced, fruitful.

purple= youth.
so then me and you= black&white.

without you?= colourful

Or the other way around ???

Twilight Crazy!!!

2008-12-06T02:57:00.000-08:00

Ok you guys should have figured it out already. Im Twilight Crazy...Enjoy the pics!!!

Real from Fake

2008-12-06T02:47:00.000-08:00

★【˚Real eyes, Realize, Real lies!˚】★ 　
Times like this shows you-
your `fakes` from your `reals`.......
Your bestfriend might turn out to be your worst enemy
Life changes alot and we have to get used to it.
But still why does everything so good turn out so bad...?

Holidays...

2008-12-06T01:15:00.000-08:00

Hi...My holidays began and ended with friday nite. Now its back to doing work. According to my dad holidays are over. I felt like saying that it hadnt even started. It sucks having your entire life being planned out for you. My whole life objective is to impress him. But it obviously isnt happening anytime soon. Imagine failing at your life goal. Believe me its damn sad.

Anyway...here is the progress between me and my crush...

Even though we were miles apart and I still know he doesnt love me the way I do.

Still, at the very instant i thought of him. I felt well. Whole.

I could feel my heart racing in my chest the blood pulsing hot and fast through my veins.

The same way it always did when I see him smile.

My lungs filled with the same sweet scent of his skin that for some reason smelt sweeter

with him not there.

It was like the hole he had made in my heart had never existed.

The pain that caused me so much misery and pain. The aching pain!

The hurt around every edge! Nothing ever hurt like it before!

And now at the mere sight of him again everything dissapeared.

I swore I wouldnt let him have that power over me.

All the anger, the hurt, the sorrow vanished!

I was perfect---not healed, but as if there had never been a hole in the first place.

Why???

I watched Twilight!!!

2008-12-05T19:58:00.000-08:00

OMG! Twilight is soo great I watched it with Vivian, Sheryl, Laura, Ji Jie and Ji Young. Kwok Xiong and Ean Ming came along also. Kwok Xiong thought Bella was hot. We all started screaming when Edward came. We also screamed at the last part when she was with James. Damn scary man. Anyway we all had soo much fun. The lady beside Vivian got so pissed at us cause we were screaming so loud. Im gonna make a shirt that says I LOVE EDWARD CULLEN. So sweet lah the movie. Ill upload the pics and the songs from the movie later.

Can it get hotter than this???

NO!

Hello :]

2008-12-01T20:37:00.002-08:00

Vivian Here :)

Please re-link her!!. This is actually Vila's blog.

She will mostly update this blog instead of the other one.

The Girl who is obessessed with Edward/Robert .I described

She's VilaSini :)

Haahaha.

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room ♥

Don't You Forget About Me.

Post 100, Whoa.

Whoa, What a Month. Boy, I Miss You.

Vampire For Dummies.

Back At Your Door,

Party In The MSA (;

Results May Vary. Pfft.

Crazy Love.

Damn, Worked Up! - I'm No Superman ; Lazlo Bane

It's A New Life ; Start Of Something New - HSM 1

MUST WATCH!

School's Starting Man! ; I Can't Wait - Akon ft. T-Pain

Dreams Should Come True ; A Moment Like This - Kell Clarkson

How Much Longer? ; Many The Miles - Sara Bareilles

Moving On ; If You Want Me To - Ginny Owens

Words I Like To Say Out Loud ; Words, Words, Words - Jason Mraz

It's Over, I'm Done ; Never Say Never - The Fray

We Had Some Good Times ; Built To Last - Melee

I'll Never Forget You ; You And Me - Lifehouse

Last Few Days Of School ; Making Memories Of Us - Keith Urban

Dateless ; One Is The Loneliest Number - Harry Nilsson

School Dance ; A Night To Remember - HSM 3

Bored as Hell ; I cant even think of a song!!!! - Vila.

Striking ; 21st Century Life - Sam Sparro

Edits ; Collide - Howie Day

Series of Confusing Events - Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Relationships ; Love Song For No One - John Mayer

Death of a Legend ; You Are Not Alone - Michael Jackson

My Little Brother is Nine!!! ; Happy Brithday - Click Five

Forget Home, I Want School ; Quando, Quando, Quando - Michael Buble

New Moon ; Breathe - Taylor Swift

Kickin I't Old School ; How Far We've Come - Matchbox 20

Laura's Birthday ; Happy Birthday - The Click Five

Mark ; My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson

Feeling Lost ; You Don't Know Me - Michael Buble

Schoolio is Coolio :) Everything - Micheal Buble

Can't Do It Anymore; 7 Things - Miley Cyrus

Just Not Feeling The Love; Wonderful World - James Morrison

School Assembly Rehersal ; Walking On Sunshine - Katrina and the Waves

Waterfalls - TLC

Road To Hollywood; Malaysia Truly Asia - Unknown

Adam; Your So Gay, Katy Perry.

Anoop Desai <3

Assembly

School :)

Free Fallin'

Just Kidding...

Not As Good As It's Supposed To...

Holiday In Redang

Last Day of Term 2

Im Free!

Dilemma

Ahh Sekolah!

I LOVE YOU!

Sing A Long Song

Prom

American Idol

Vivian's Birthday Party!

Mark....

It Hurts....

Misses Charmayne!

Doesnt Exist...

It Is Hard to Believe...

Untouchable...

Waiting On That Guy...

You Have No Idea...How Much You Hurt Me!

The Sun's Lament..

We Have A Serious Problem!

Jacob Black

Hey Stephen, Taylor Swift.

Cooking Class!

50 Random Questions

Crazy Random Survey

Wild and Crazy Random Survey

Take this fun survey filled with crazy random questions.

Rondom Survey! :)

Fave Actors

Me And My Bro Being Idiots...

Saturday...Candy Floss Fun